I just came back from watching the new Matt Damon movie, "The Adjustment Bureau." It had alot to do about fate vs. free will. I can't say it was the best or the worst movie I have ever seen, but it did keep my attention.
Walking out and now an hour later I am thinking about what we should do when presented with challenges. The main character in the movie pushed against a system that was trying to dissuade him. He tried to avoid his feelings, but in the end he chose his own truth and fought for it.
I think about the life I have led and the life I have in front of me and hope and pray for clarity about what I believe to be important enough to fight for. Of course, I will fight to the death for my children. Of that there is no doubt.
I have also fought for two years and counting against the Wall Street machine that tried to take my home away and is taking thousands of others' homes at an incredible pace. What I have learned about what is going on in our country is mindboggling at times. That it continues is equally so. I thought for awhile - after the stress of this put me in the hospital - that I should let go of the fight. But I can't.
So these days I am once again reinventing me. Who is the new me who works, pays the bills, spends time with friends, but still keeps up with and fights against what is going on in our messed up world while all the time making sure I don't fall ill again? It is a daily adjustment such that I have never before experienced. But putting my head in the sand again and pretending this is not going on is more stressful than the alternative.
I know this is sort of a general post, and I'll get more specific as time goes on. But the movie got me to musing, and I wanted to share it here.
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